Thursday, December 29, 2011


A few weeks has passed...but I still feel numb and defeated inside. At some point, I even started to dislike, curse, and condemn certain people (you know who). I know that revenge is a dish best served cold, and perhaps, a good revenge is what it takes to satisfy me. I don't get mad, my dear, I get even. Forgive me but I am a mere human after all. I ain't a saint, so, don't expect to type sugar-coated nice, sweet, and resigned words here because I won't! And don't expect me to forgive and forget because ain't nobody got time for that shit.

Aye, Captain! To the blackhole you go!

If anyone is going to lecture me with "everything happens for a reason" or "let karma gets him/ them" or "what goes around comes around" or "good things come to those who wait" or even "semua akan indah pada waktunya", seriously, don't bother because I am not buying those nonsense.

You know why? Because, it did crossed my mind that what happened to me might be my own karma. I don't know which or why but it is easier to assume that way rather than playing the victim card and blaming the entire universe for whatever happened. Hey, the world does NOT revolves around me, nor does it revolves around you. I truly am aware of that. Hence, let's leave the ball right here, right now.


For some reasons, I was glad that it was finally over. It took a huge burden away from my shoulder. The commitment itself is heavy, and it needed efforts from both parties in order to maintain it. Since after a few months, it was one party to carry all the burden by its own, I guess calling it off is the wisest and rightest thing to do.

Monday, December 12, 2011


I feel thankful for having people I can always count on whenever possible. I cried a lot during the last few weeks that I lost count...well, being a sensitive person is awful.

Tiring and torturing final-week is finally over! Auf wiedersehen to finals and holla to semester break! I have been consuming lots of coffee (or even too much) lately but I remain falling asleep easily. I think I might need a stronger substitution other than coffee because caffeine is no longer working on me. This weekend was amazing! I was technically spending my Friday, Saturday and Sunday with lots of fun to balance myself with the stress I've earned from finals :P I bet I will be very productive and busy during December since there are lots of things coming up! Joyfully welcoming semester break. This December is gonna be one of zee best month ever! :D

Thursday, December 01, 2011

somewhere we belong

dear 2014, I know our friendship isn't exactly normal, but I am glad I found a friend in you. so, thank you for being there. thank you.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011


A few days to torturous final week and the long-awaited semester break.

Thursday, November 17, 2011


Oh, hello there! I'm feeling a little bit blue today. Maybe it is because of the weather. I think I need more sunshine. This week has been rough and hectic. A turning point for my life. I'm not gonna talk about it...but let's keep on believing that when bad things occur, good things are just around the corner waiting to happen.

Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn't work out that way... - Katy Perry

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

"If you’re skinny, people will call you anorexic. If you’re intelligent, people will call you a smart-ass. If you’re pretty, people will call you fake. No matter what, people will always find something wrong with you. The trick? Just don’t give a fuck." - Unknown

Saturday, October 01, 2011


Dearest Edward, I would be lying if I said this song did not and do not remind me of you. :) You do say good morning when it's midnight. I do wake up to your sunset. It does drive me mad. I do miss you so bad.

I miss you so bad...I miss you more than anything...I miss you, Edward Koharuddin.

Thursday, September 22, 2011


What do couple who are having a long distance relationship consume daily? Flashback of the happy memories when they are together. He-he. I know it's gross, but that is exactly what I do everyday when I miss you...

Wednesday, September 07, 2011


A very cute, worth to watch, video I had just found on Youtube. "Catch My Heart" by Michelle Phan featuring Joseph Vincent. I instantly fell in love with this story. "Love stories happen everyday. Never let a good one go away."

Currently missing someone who is not physically by my side. He was sleeping while I was typing this post. My favourite person is on the other side of the world, but it's okay, it's okay, it's okay.

Edward Koharuddin, please come home soon...this video is dedicated to you because what happen between us is unexpected, and is very good :)

Loving someone deeply gives you strength, while being loved by someone deeply gives you courage. - Lao Tzu

Monday, August 22, 2011


I love you, Edward Koharuddin 

Happy 1st! We have many more to come!

there I said it and I mean it.
always have, always will...

Long distance relationship is never easy. Especially when we are living in two opposite time-zones. It is tough, tiring, and full of risks and doubts. With you, I am willing to take the risks. I miss you! Take care!

See you soon on skype :P